Mulch in your sandals. Shouts and squeals, laughter and pounding feet. Music from the festival over in the next field. Kids calling to each other as they chase and climb, their hair standing on end from the static as they zip down the plastic slides. The swings creak in rhythm. I try to follow much-needed adult conversation while still keeping an eye on my wanderer. Fearless littleman, he follows no piper. Luckily the older girls are playing babysitter, and doing a fine job. I can briefly turn divided attention toward my smaller charge, who would love to eat some of this fascinating mulch. But ouch! He is cutting teeth. I'm glad wisdom teeth don't hurt as much as baby teeth seem to! A breeze ruffles my skirt, the sun patterns shift under the trees. Here come small tennis shoes, it still awes me some to see him run. This creature of our making, this independent little man. Just a brief stop and then shedding cheerios, they whirl away again.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
quick thoughts on working together
If you want someone to make their own decisions, do not second-guess them all the time.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
a driveway moment
Sun warms my back. A gusty breeze stirs the trees, sending spent dogwood petals skipping across the driveway. "Look, mama! Flowers! Like snow." The sidewalk chalk was fun, but he has moved on to imaginary baseball games and swordfights with a handy stick. I wave to a neighbor, a dog barks, a Harley roars past. ("Motorcycle!!") We only have a few minutes while baby brother naps, but what a lovely few minutes. Now it's a hiking stick, as he bravely tramps up the grey concrete mountain. "Oooh, there a airplane!" Yes, sweetie! Take it all in. I am refreshed with this world through your eyes!
Friday, April 14, 2006
Trying to be a good parent: a few ideas (part 2)
So here's another thing I try to do to help me be a good parent (and wife, and friend, and family member etc): at least once a day, (and throughout the day if needed) I try to mentally step back from the present and take a look at the broader blessings in my life. So maybe this or that is driving me nuts, and this or that needs fixing, and I haven't slept much for months and Littleman has been illustrating the truly remarkable tenacity and persistence of toddlers. But here I am, doing what I really always wanted to do, with the most amazing kids in the world (OK, to me anyway) and a wonderful daddy for them, and we have a nice little house and an expanding business, and family nearby that love us and want to be a part of our lives. I mean, Wow. Your awesome blessings might be different, but I bet you have some beautiful reminders in your life too, if you stop to look for them. Taking a look at the big picture helps me ground and refocus, giving me a more grateful and tranquil base to stand on as I face the here and now.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Had some very pleasant Jehova's Witnesses witness at me today. Two women- I briefly thought I'd answer their leading questions honestly, but didn't have the time and energy for it. I didn't lie, I just chose what truths I told- you know the technique I am sure. I imagine she left with an impression of my beliefs that's very different from the reality- or rather, that she would consider to be very different. Really I think the core of our beliefs is probably the same. Same spirit, same energy. The shame is that it's highly unlikely she would ever come to recognize that. Perhaps I am being unfair- but considering she's going door-to-door reading scripture to people, my guess is she takes things rather literally. Oh, well.
Sunday, April 9, 2006
well thank goodness for L.A. Story
OK, I have to say that although I ADORE my boys and I am really loving my mommy-job, I am getting just a bit burnt out. Whew. It's partly because Littleman is 2, and partly because everyone keeps getting sick, and partly because I'm still not getting much sleep, and partly because there's 2 of them and only one of me. But mainly because I've been giving it my all for over 2 years (over 3, counting pregnancy) and I'm just wearing a bit thin. I keep dreaming of vacations, and time spent sans-children, and time to meditate or to work on that quilt, or organize photos or shower or write or do yoga or read or cuddle my hubby or. . . to SLEEP! Etc. ;) Time spent NOT wiping runny noses or changing diapers or picking up toys or doing dishes or cleaning up cat vomit or waiting for a toddler to pee in the potty or doing laundry or. . . geez, where does my day go???
Thursday, April 6, 2006
I don't want my kids to get the varicella vaccine. Varicella (to simplify a bit) is Chicken Pox. The varicella vaccine is now required in the state of GA for any child who goes to school, and is part of the recommended schedule of vaccines for all children. This is a new vaccine, with widespread distribution in the US beginning in 1995. It is essentially still an experimental vaccine, because there have not been any large long-term studies of it's effectiveness. It is considered to be safe and effective (meaning, the danger of the vaccine is less than the danger of the disease and this vaccine is about 86% - 95% effective in preventing the disease) for children.